Laura Bandy
Summer 2024 | Poetry
Plastic Surgery Barbie
When we were young, my twin
would chew the feet off our Barbies.
Sometimes she gnawed faces, too.
She loved them so much
she wanted them inside her. This
is my guess—that consuming
seemed a way to become one
with the small dolls we imagined real.
I never imagined myself
in a plastic surgeon’s office, but
the soft sculpture shaped like a ripe
honeydew and formed of pink velvet
mop-like strips scattered with glitter
feels very Barbie to me. And thus—
glamorous, good. I should be
grateful that a surgeon will give me
new breasts, is required by law
to rebuild me after cancer chewed
through my too-dense tissue, my
sneaky mammary lobes. The tumor
loved me. The tumor wanted more
of me, wants more, wants all. A
love like that you wait for your whole
life, a Ken better than kin, an all-in
Laura-obsessive. Choices are slim—
silicone or saline, over or under
the pectoral muscle like a Blackjack
bet. Will they saw through your chest wall
or simply slip implants into the flesh
envelopes left when they cut the mass out
along with both breasts? Barbie chooses
dresses—evening gown shimmering
a rosy mosaic bustier of glass-like pebbles,
hard to the touch, bejeweling clouds of peach
tulle. Perhaps it is texture that invites
the bite; irresistible shiny Chiclet-sized
adornment ripe for a child’s teeth to rip
off and spit out, over and over. Barbie’s
charm must be inborn, surely, so that
staring up out of the airless box—feet stubs,
bust bare, mouth hole—still, you’ll choose her
won’t you
Laura Bandy attended the University of Southern Mississippi’s Center for Writers PhD program from 2009 to 2013, where she received the Joan Johnson Poetry Award. In 2018, she won first prize in the "Trio of Triolets" contest, and received third place in the Illinois Emerging Writers Competition that same year. She has new work forthcoming in RHINO, Bennington Review, and the Beloit Poetry Journal. Her chapbook, Hack, was published by Dancing Girl Press in August 2021, and her full-length poetry collection, Monster Movie, was published by Gold Wake Press in spring 2023. Laura teaches at Spoon River Community College and hails from Jacksonville, Illinois, home of the Ferris wheel. She is a twin and SUCH a Virgo.