Matthew Dickman
Summer 2024 | Poetry
Two Poems
GOD & THISTLE
A fox was walking along
Cromwell Road
at midnight and was
not God.
A salmon was being lifted up
out of the river in the mouth
of a bear and was not God
and the bear
was not God.
But the thistle being blown by the wind
and washed by the rain
had all the makings
of the son of God.
I am the son of no man.
I am the god of nothing
but perhaps my four-year-old son,
I am his
God but maybe only for another
couple years.
I felt so insecure
when I woke up this morning
as if the circumstance
of my body had changed overnight
without me even knowing.
I got out of bed and followed myself
into the living room which sounds
like a place the living God
would live and looked
out the window at the rain
and the grassy field across
the street and felt
robbed of something.
I wanted to scream but I don’t know how.
Two little boys were in the field
throwing their umbrellas up in the air
and then stomping on them
like little policemen.
Yes, I thought to myself, that’s it,
you two know how
to be Gods even if your hands are cold,
even if the mismatched socks
in your rain boots are soaked.
A crow landed in the grass
near them and was not a God.
It’s beak was as narrow as a century,
sharp as a Bishop’s prick.
It kept opening its mouth
and calling out
to the boys, it’s feathers like a ribbon torn up
and then gathered back together,
its claws buried in the mud
like cavities, it was awful and amazing,
more powerful than a God
like a telephone.
In the kitchen I added milk
to my coffee and then carried it
to the front porch
and looked over the molted neighborhood,
the world I did not create.
I think we created God a million years ago,
I think we did it
the first time a father left
to buy a pack of smokes
and then never returned.
The only God I know
is the rain, and envelopes, antelopes, telephones
and redwoods. The only God I know is you.
BOUQUET & CHAPLET
I. Major’s Rose
In the roundest part
of the roundabout
a red rose has let one
petal fall the whole length
of the rosebush, all
fifty stories,
down into the wet
blades of grass.
It’s there that a ladybug
crawls onto the silky
pillow of the petal
and falls asleep.
If she has dreams they
are only dreams
of light and sound.
There are no figures
in it, no one being chased,
no one being killed.
II. Sharon’s Camellia
Just like a french
pastry covered in pink
icing, like a very
fancy doughnut
you would both want
to eat yet not
destroy, my neighbor’s
camellia is bending
its head in the late
spring rain. If it had parents
its parents are
gone now, part of the soil
it has reached up
and out of. It is not
praying or worried.
It has found an ant
and whispers to it:
hello, hello there, I love you.
III. Joseph’s Carnation
Something purple
sways between the ferns
in the April rain
like a man remembering
a song, a woman,
a child, and remembering
them all at once
can’t help but sway.
A Minerva memory.
I remember being
in love and the moon
washing everyone’s
hair and the woman
I loved pinning
the carnation to my breast
which turned into
a breast of sunlight,
lemons, music and shade.
IV. Dorianne’s Lily
A star up above
my house shakes
its dust off at the door
like a child
with sandy feet and long
dirty-blonde hair.
I like how lilies
are for funerals
but also make the house
smell amazing.
They are like mothers
the way they
make you feel safe
even when you
have no money, not even
a dime. Star Lily and
Of The Valley. Tiger
and also Eye-Liner.
V. Michael’s Lilac
A blanket in the grass,
the spring air full
of water, sassafras tea
in old cups. The lilacs
hang down
off their branches like grapes.
Placed all around
the house
you would never know
that it was a house full
of dog pee and cat
pee, of children’s pee.
At night, when I’m
sleeping the lilacs
are awake and move
in the dark in the breeze,
they watch a mother
raccoon walk across the yard.
VI. Didi’s Magnolia
A candelabra in the rain
lighting up a creamy sky,
each flame looking up
and is the exact color
of the cloud it sees.
The Floridian
smell of them
sweeping the sidewalks
so that on the way
to work everything
feels pleasant. Not easy,
not simple,
but good. In the arms
of the magnolia
the wind is a long gown
made to swirl petals,
and hold more than you could
ever imagine holding.
VII. Mike’s Witch-Hazel
There’s a river
of witch-hazel that runs
for miles
separating the eastbound
and westbound
lanes of the freeway,
which runs from here,
where I am,
all the way to the coast.
My friend, if you
find me one day, lifeless,
could you lift me
into your arms and set me
floating along it? There is
so much healing
in the world and we barely
notice it. Its leaves—
bright yellow in the snow.
Matthew Dickman is the author of seven books of poetry including Husbandry (WW Norton & Co, 2022) and Drinking Coffee in the Snow(Café en la Nieve): New and selected poems, a Spanish bilingual edition (Zindo & Gafuri, 2023). He lives with his sons in Portland, Oregon.